I noticed that the pomegranate Sobe drink I was drinking, had one of those “instant win” contests, where you check under the cap to see if you’ve won some sort of big prize. So just for the hell of it, I checked mine and all it said was “cause losing is half the fun!” Hah, assholes.
So I spent most of 4th of July weekend either painting, scraping away at my concrete floors or out for late evening escapades. Special thanks to Clint and Steve for helping me out. Clint and I especially did some annoyingly difficult work in pulling up the tack strips with crowbars on sunday. When I tried to pull up the first one without goggles or anything a bunch of debris and nails flew into my face. It didn’t hurt or anything, but it was a wake up call like “hey we’re gonna need a bigger boat,” so we went straight to home depot and bought some safety goggles, and also put on surgical masks(like the kind that asians always wear when they’re out and about.)
But enough about home remodeling. Sunday night on the 4th of July, I went out with Jonathan. It was crowded as balls. We ran into Bill’s ex girlfriend Marilyn, who I’m sorta friends with now. She jokingly said that she had changed her name on her birth certificate to “bill’s ex girlfriend.” Girls never like being referred to as someone’s ex girlfriend. They must value the notion of their own identity or something. Imagine that. We mostly discussed Saved by the Bell and Full House, while the girl next to me’s birthday balloon kept floating into my face.
Anyway 4th of july weekend sucked, just like memorial day weekend. Holiday weekends always suck.
For some reason this has been my song lately. It just seems to fit where I’m at right now….
Bows and flows of angel hair and ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere, i’ve looked at clouds that way.
But now they only block the sun, they rain and snow on everyone.
So many things i would have done but clouds got in my way.
I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now,
From up and down, and still somehow
It’s cloud illusions i recall.
I really don’t know clouds at all.
Moons and junes and ferris wheels, the dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real; i’ve looked at love that way.
But now it’s just another show. you leave ‘em laughing when you go
And if you care, don’t let them know, don’t give yourself away.
I’ve looked at love from both sides now,
From win and lose, and still somehow
It’s love’s illusions i recall.
I really don’t know love at all.
Tears and fears and feeling proud to say “i love you” right out loud,
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds, i’ve looked at life that way.
But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads, they say
I’ve changed.
Something’s lost but something’s gained in living every day.
I’ve looked at life from both sides now,
From give and take, and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions i recall.
I really don’t know life at all.
